Dear _________,
These days have been hard. I find myself lapsing into despair, hopelessness. Thoughts of terror and death. My BFF wrote to me:
Focus on those rainbows in your room 🌈🌈🌈
I find small good things are really bolstering in a situation like this
My dad has a friend who once told him this story he was suicidal and he made the decision to go lie down in a rural field and just like wait for death, that was his chosen method, so he’s lying in the field and a cow walks up and licks him on the face, and the cow licking him he was like wait what the fuck that was so adorable and weird, so the cow didn’t like completely cure everything overnight but the cow did save his life because after that he was like actually I want to stick around in this world and he got up and went home
So. Here are my rainbows and my cow.
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